THIS IS ME Redux
I feel the need to play this song over and over again.. call it the theme song of my life. Maybe it's because I'm turning 40 in a few short weeks; maybe it's because I've had a disagreement with a friend; maybe it's because I'm a silly girl; maybe it's all of the above...
I blogged about this over two years ago. I like who I am. I get mixed up and I get insecure. I make mistakes and say things I shouldn't say. I can be intense and grandiose. I can be carefree and drama free. But I don't walk away and I don't cut people off. I don't judge and I forgive myself and my friends very easily.
I don't apologize for being who I am. I admit that I am working at being a better person every single day. This is who I am. This is who you get when I invite you into my life and invest time into getting to know you. This is who you get when you invite me into your life and invest time into getting to know me.
I am a strong woman and a woman who knows exactly what she wants and what she needs. I do not invest in other people lightly.
If it's too much for you, there's nothing I can do about it.
THIS IS ME.. (if you're still reading, then these lyrics say it better than I can)
I HAVE MY ADDICTIONS
I KEEP MY SHARE OF SECRETS
AND THINGS YOU'LL NEVER SEE
I GET SELFISH AND DEFENSIVE
AND PAY TOO MUCH ATTENTION TO MY INSECURITIES
I'M JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
I TRY TO LOVE JESUS AND MYSELF
YES, MY HEART BREAKS FOR THE HOMELESS
I WORRY ABOUT MY PARENTS
AND ALL MY BILLS ARE LATE
YES, I'M DEALING WITH THE CHANGES
THIS COMPLICATED STRANGENESS
OF SEEING LIFE THIS WAY
I'M JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
I TRY TO LOVE JESUS AND MYSELF
I LAUGH AT SILLY MOVIES
TEAR UP WHEN I SEE BABIES
AND I'M STUBBORN AS A STONE
I CRITICIZE MY BODY
I WONDER IF I'M READY
TO EVER BE ALONE
I'M JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
I CRY JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU BELIEVE
OR WHAT YOU THINK OF WHAT YOU SEE
BUT THIS IS A PART OF ME
OF WHAT I DO AND WHO I AM
ALL OF MY IMPURITIES
ARE RIGHT HERE ON MY SLEEVE
THIS IS ME
I blogged about this over two years ago. I like who I am. I get mixed up and I get insecure. I make mistakes and say things I shouldn't say. I can be intense and grandiose. I can be carefree and drama free. But I don't walk away and I don't cut people off. I don't judge and I forgive myself and my friends very easily.
I don't apologize for being who I am. I admit that I am working at being a better person every single day. This is who I am. This is who you get when I invite you into my life and invest time into getting to know you. This is who you get when you invite me into your life and invest time into getting to know me.
I am a strong woman and a woman who knows exactly what she wants and what she needs. I do not invest in other people lightly.
If it's too much for you, there's nothing I can do about it.
THIS IS ME.. (if you're still reading, then these lyrics say it better than I can)
I HAVE MY ADDICTIONS
I KEEP MY SHARE OF SECRETS
AND THINGS YOU'LL NEVER SEE
I GET SELFISH AND DEFENSIVE
AND PAY TOO MUCH ATTENTION TO MY INSECURITIES
I'M JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
I TRY TO LOVE JESUS AND MYSELF
YES, MY HEART BREAKS FOR THE HOMELESS
I WORRY ABOUT MY PARENTS
AND ALL MY BILLS ARE LATE
YES, I'M DEALING WITH THE CHANGES
THIS COMPLICATED STRANGENESS
OF SEEING LIFE THIS WAY
I'M JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
I TRY TO LOVE JESUS AND MYSELF
I LAUGH AT SILLY MOVIES
TEAR UP WHEN I SEE BABIES
AND I'M STUBBORN AS A STONE
I CRITICIZE MY BODY
I WONDER IF I'M READY
TO EVER BE ALONE
I'M JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
I CRY JUST LIKE EVERYBODY ELSE
I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU BELIEVE
OR WHAT YOU THINK OF WHAT YOU SEE
BUT THIS IS A PART OF ME
OF WHAT I DO AND WHO I AM
ALL OF MY IMPURITIES
ARE RIGHT HERE ON MY SLEEVE
THIS IS ME
posted by Pamela Furr at
10:59 AM
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Let's see, you are:
Intelligent
Beautiful
Young (still)
Good humored
Gainfully employed
Talented
Popular
Professional
But somehow, you feel that something is not quite right, that something is missing?
Oy
Are you a muoslum ?
Wish you the best Pamela. There is still an open invitation for you to come blog over at rightinalabama.net if you are ever interested.
Hey guys... I think I saw Pamela working the window at McDonald's...
Nice, Danielle. What's your problem?
Pamela,
You're either lying or are quite delusional. From your reply to Danielle:
[Danielle,
.....If I called you an idiot or moron, then it must have been based on some personal attack, because that's the only time I do that. I've got a copy of every show I've ever done, so if you'd like to tell me when you called, I'd be glad to listen again and apologize if I need to.]
Oh, REALLY, Pam?! EACH of the SEVERAL "Idiot!"s and Moron!'s you fired at me was NOT precedeed by ANY personal attack, since I NEVER made one against you, NOT EVEN in response to yours! In fact, the strongest words I've EVER used on you are those a few lines above, "lying or... delusional."
So, why don't you peruse those "tapes of every show [you've] ever done," find each of the instances where you viciously called me names, note that NONE was prompted by a personal attack from me, and think about who it is to whom you owe an apology.
Then, retract that passage and apologize to Danielle and everyone else who read that hogwash on your blog. It's only fair, eh?
Besides, your suppsoed litmus test for name calling makes no sense. Unless you're stupid, wouldn't it be obvious to you that another person's being an idiot or a moron is quite independent of whether or not he's personally attacked you? Maybe you should expand your vocabulary a bit.
Finally, if you still consider me an idiot, I challenge you to ANY generally accepted test of intellect. $100 says you're closer to "idiot/moron" than am I. Shall we dance?
Cliff Craig cliftonncraig@yahoo.com
Cliff, I do stand corrected. I called you an idiot/moron every chance I had. For that, Danielle, I apologize.
Cliff you were deliberately antagonistic everytime you called the show. In fact, not only my show, but all other shows I've heard you on.
Instead of trying to have an intelligent conversation, you would stoop to the levels of a bully on the playground.
For that, sir, I find you a moron. Good day!
I think Cliff and Danielle
are Mooselumms.
Pam,
Wrong again, though I get that alot -- folks thinking my "antagonism" is deliberate, i.e., that I'm playing Devil's advocate or taking a stance that really isn't mine, just to start a fight. Not once in my life have I done so without disclaiming my argument as such.
Often, I called your show because YOU were being antagonistic --
NO gay weddings!
Black girls have babies to collect welfare!
Guantanamo detainees have no rights!
.... etc.
Could you draw from any of the "tapes of every show [you] ever did" and find an instance of my "bullying" you or anyone else? No idea where you're going with that. Hard to bully someone who hangs up whenever defeat in argument looms.
My gentle suggestion (perhaps "bullying" to YOU) that you try to learn mo betta words with which to express yourself....
... Shucks, it didn't take. You've now equated "bully" with "moron"; the two are unrelated.
And of course you've engaged once again in name calling OTHER THAN in response to a personal attack. I guess you need to apologize again... to Danielle(?!)
As to my proposed $100 bet -- Can we assume you now realize your IQ is inferior to that of even this here country hick moron?
-- Cliff Craig
No, MRS. ARLIS KAINOWSKI, I'm not a muslim, and I strongly believe Danielle is not either.
Where you goin' wit DAT?
While we're at it, your name suggests YOU are of that religion where underlings kiss the ring of the guy in a funny hat who was elected Voice of God by a bunch of closet queer boy-rapers. No?
-- Cliff Craig
Pam,
So, with bated breath we await...
Did you ever find the tape(s) of the show(s) on which you called Danielle ugly names, dare I say BULLIED her?
Seems you do such without even realizing it, like an old hag who isn't aware she's crapped herself. Similarly smelly, too, this unfortunate habit of yours.
Reckon you're a serial killer, but have whacked all your victims whilst sleepwalking? If you don't even know you're doing it, you remain innocent, right?
-- Cliff Craig
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Who's this "blog administrator"?
And how does a post face this person's axe? Profanity?
Also, why is this Mrs. Kainowski obsessed with folks' Muslim status?
Jerome,
I can answer your question to Pam, or rather point out that SHE answered it earlier.
What she's "missing" is an evenness of temper. Said deficit leads to her diarrhea-mouthing of things she quickly regrets saying, or which perhaps are outright untrue -- "I ... say things I shouldn't say."
Unfortunately for Pam, she's not gonna "get all better" until she apologizes to me. Don't hold your breath.
-- cliff
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